Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 3:13-14 NKJV)
God wants to grow you up into a mature Christian. If you feel you are mature, then He wants to continue that process. There are goals that Christ has for you in this life. There are levels of spirituality for you to reach that are currently beyond your comprehension. God has great things stored up for you. Even in the midst seemingly so much hell on this Earth, God has so many good things for you to walk into.
God wants you to drop the past. All of the slip ups, mistakes, your stupidity, and backsliding. It’s over. If you have been born again Christ has made you new. If you are a new person, then you should be doing new things. Guilt is over in Jesus’ mighty name. Shame is gone through God’s cleansing power. Let go of the mess and prepare yourself for God’s best. Everything you went through was simply preparation for something better. Forget the past, anticipate what’s ahead, grow up, and get God’s absolute best for your life!